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ALWAYS DYING TO ANOTHER DAY is an improvised, unplanned 35-minute work of transition and impermanence. Still, it carries a grounded throughline of earth—the tactile, ever-present nature of home. It is a sonic invitation into complexity and struggle, a prayer of alchemy and dissolution, a cry of resilience and hope, and an act of non-attachment.
I made it in an apartment in Helsinki during a very dark January; in an old sanatorium war hospital in the forest; at a private studio in the northern woods beside the sacred mountain Yamnuska. I made it along a creek and in a field on the land where my ancestors lived for thousands of years, and overlooking Gitchi Gumi, on the land I have tried to call home.
Wide emotional experience moves into sound through the materiality of earth particles: pinecones, a branch, a rock—vibrations carried through wood. It is raw, unpolished, and almost everything I have tried not to be. In that, ALWAYS DYING TO ANOTHER DAY has been deeply healing and freeing. I hope it offers the listener even a small sense of expansiveness. — Sara Pajunen
Chaos should be regarded as very good news. — Chögyam Trungpa
All sound and video by Sara Pajunen / Text by Utah Phillips / Mixed by Sara Pajunen with additional mixing by Joseph Mabbott
Mastered by Bruce Templeton / Artwork by Sara Pajunen / © 2026 AND SAY WE DID